College. What an different expirence. I love it I do. But it can be a little overwhelming. Having to share a room with someone is not my favorite thing but luckily she is very understanding about my mental health. It's still just not as good as a "safe place" for me as I would wish. But it has made me a braver person when it comes to "manning up" and dealing with my anxiety. Classes are much better then high school. I can leave the class anytime I need without pressures of having to raise my hand and ask and also people just leave as they want and need all the time so it isn't something I'm embarrassed about as much. That part of college is way better for me. It makes me feel way more confident.
My struggle that I'm currently having is my medicine. I know I need to take off some of it but even with it I'm not fully my old self so I can't imagine going without it .My medicine is what gets me through a lot of days and I am fearful to the point of tears to stop taking it.
This also makes me really sad. I have become so reliant on this medicine that I can't go without it. It's starting to really make me upset often. I wish I could be myself again. But I try my hardest to not let it get to me. I really try.
My life is going so well right now other then anxiety. I have so much to be thankful for. I have great friends, a great boy, and family who loves me. I try to remind myself that everyday that I am fortunate and even though some days my anxiety is bad, there is always tomorrow.
Sincerely,
Your anxious but optimistic blogger
